from green to black

windsurf

ended windsurf camp recently (22-23 july) and was
surprised to find out that people had taken note
of me from my previous camp by campus crusade. i
happened to mime a trumpet player and i guess i
happen to be rather prominent. ok, this tells me
i should keep my charisma low otherwise i'd have
many people coming up and saying hi when i dont
know their names and that would be rather
embarrassing right? i concur.

thursday was rather busy too, were i was training
in the morning, meeting the guys in my crusade
camp group in the afternoon, playing badminton in
the evening, followed immediately by cycling.
yes, the weather was terrible. i was cycling in
the cold piercing rain, which was something i
didnt need to do for a long time. only to arrive
at our rendezvous to find out that our changi
expedition was canceled due to lightning.
nevertheless, i headed to chomp chomp for or luak
by myself. no use canceling a good makan trip
half way after all right?

friday was interesting because i had to be a
little thick skinned. walking around giving fliers
was not exactly the easiest thing when you tell
people that you are from a christian organization.
but i survived through it, and managed to spend
some time training with ben. which was a fantastic
thing. because with ben, i know that there is a
certain intensity i will reach. but if i train
with others, the response is always demoralizing.
dont want lah, too tough lah. like that then
train what? so i guess no choice lah, have to be
an outcast to the team.

another happy thing happened on friday, got to
talk to (future)dr liming after training. its
cool that we share a lot of common perspectives.
i wonder what the team would say if i tell them
that even the "doctor" agrees with me. oh wait,
i forgot, darren says i will be conveniently
ignored. ;) fine, just be a strong senior only
lor. at most be like simon then let my batch
remember me can liao. so we discussed recovery,
periodization, variety, physiology, team
and cardiovascular activity. enlightening indeed.

saturday was well spent in a movie, and a meal
with nick. one good thing about hanging out with
nick, other than the fact that he is my neighbour
is that we both share a common understanding and
attitude to life. and communication with him is
always a two way street, rather than the rest
who are hardly as open to sharing their thoughts
with you. but listening to the trash that comes
out of their mouths when they talk about sports.
i really wonder how much they really know at all.
at least i get a discussion with nick anyway.

i mean, i already feel left out anyway. can you
imagine how he feels? who calls him out for
training? at least i'm glad he reassured me that
he will be there for official training. i hope
i can do the same myself.

i shared with a few people that i *may* (strongly
emphasized) not be as committed this coming year.
as in, i'll stay around to advise the juniors lah
but i wont aim to row competitively. because i
dont really have a brother on the boat since quite
of the few stronger rowwers are gone. i mean i
consider my batch friends on the boat, because
in truth they are really babies in the water.
have you ever seen them pull when you are on the
another boat? pull like pussies. i train so hard
fail my studies, just to pull their weight. then
not good enough, must endure the bitching and
hypocrasy. and the worst part? in front of you
act like nothing like that. really, unhappy must
say. let everyone know. hide hide hide inside how
to solve problems like that?

so i figured i'll just be a performing non-entity.
do my part, not that i didnt try. i did borrow
books for them, attempt to change their thinking,
jio people for training, cross training. haiz.

i hope i'm successful in doing that thing then.
afterall, noone should find out about it until
its too late. i think i can predict a lot of
mc(s) soon. hahahahahha

oh well, time to read the books i borrowed.
hopefully i'll be able to blog the salient
points here to i can remind myself of what
to take note.

cant wait for matric fair on monday, i'll bet
they will tell me they dont need people, then
i do my crusade stuff (if they need people).

sigh. things really shouldnt be ending like
this. but we never really appreciate people
till they're gone anyway

posted by green unseen @ 3:30 AM