from green to black

sleep

so after many days of frolicking with beer and great
company, passing my time by sleeping in late and a
modest bit of exercise i find my time slipping by
ever so quickly. i used to think the holidays were
long, now they are almost gone.

now, that really isn't so much the issue since i can
always play when school starts anyway. but what i
figured sucks the most as i was driving home slowly
after church service was that i dont find myself
interesting anymore. i used to have so many plans
on what i wanted to do, some are done and some are
not, but less than what i would have liked.

so maybe i've been spending too much time awake? or
maybe its time for me to sleep some more and dream
bigger and more exciting dreams.

maybe i'll just talk about what makes my life so
boring right now. routine. i always believed that
routine was for a purpose, a part of discipline
that helps you improve yourself. well, that isnt
wrong, its the for what.

for myself its adventure of course. the novel, the
unexpected, the unchallenged. to have a strong mind
and body to overcome all obstacles in the different
paths i choose to walk.

the last forest trek i made, was in the army. so was
the last hill i climbed and last trail i navigated.

the last city i walked around in was jb, i only
spent 30mins doing so. i think they have a
different weather god there, it scorches, rains
and then scorches even more.

the last new thing i tried... shit, i cant even
remember the last new thing i tried.

the last dance style i learnt... hell, i've
forgotten all the dance styles i learnt already.

basically i'm bemoaning the fact that i am getting
boring and i'm pretty fed up about it.

i pretty much hate most of the social activities
normal people do to pass time because its routine.

like; arrive at a place early, wait, wait and scold
the guy who comes 30mins late, decide where to eat,
persuade people to eat at a certain place, eat, go
to the cinema, decide which movie to watch, persuade
people to watch the same movie, group possibly
breaks up, miracle happens and group doesnt break
up, decide to watch movie, wait to watch movie,
watch movie, say its a great show, go toilet, wait
for people who go toilet, decide where to go, some
go home, the rest shop, drink coffee, chill out,
enjoy the company, say that you had a great day,
part, repeat cycle. maybe with different friends.

i had plans to get a rock and ice wall climbing
cert, on hold.

i had plans to fly a mini plane, jaribu, couldnt make
it.

i wanted to cycle up to malaysia, friends are in
the army.

looks like the only thing thats left for me is
sleep, and maybe i'll live my dreams vicariously.

maybe i'll lie and i'll say that i've conquered
eastern europe on foot or sailed past the tip
of africa. maybe i'll lie and say that i've
scaled mountains that are majestic and snow
capped.

you never lie to yourself or anyone.

screw it! i'm going to sleep.

posted by green unseen @ 8:38 AM