from green to black

the way things go

so agm has ended with rather surprising results.
however due to the late nominations, i'm am
rather caught off guard when the nominees were
announced. although the q&a session was insightful
i was rather unhappy that certain essentials
such as the vision of leadership or our path
of progression was not elaborated on, or simply
glossed over. hence i felt, there was a grave
injustice to mervyn whom i felt did the most
planning and prepared the most comprehensive
speech.

mainly i felt that i should leave, and it is
"their" team, its definitely not mine nor my
batch's. throughout the speech, the references
made to the team was, my(the leaders') batch
and older. basically(sadly) for the junior
batch of 07/08 you will not be very appreciated
as individuals, rather you'll be the same dogs
you have always been. used not respected.

not your fault though, its precisely because you
guys are pretty useless, and never really bothered
to improve properly, hence you'll always be the
same weak, pitysome individuals you will always be.
lets face a fact here, if you are weak, you will
be weak, doesnt matter how much heart you have,
the fact still stands. in the recently concluded
race where you were outclassed, given that you
had 10times more heart, the fact still stands
that you were weak. tough, sorry.

what was said about doing bicept curls with
joseph is also true. looking at your levels and
rate of improvement, its going to be slow,
especially when you are going to inherit the
same kind of training, the same strategies.
same old, same old. well be prepared for the
same old results. looking at all 3, non promised
nor had a vision of results.

all the talk and the fire after the defeat has
kind of dissipated, when you forget it, it
probably doesnt hurt or cut so much anymore.

some proposals which i thought were vague.

more runs. what? longer runs or more per week?
limited by the number of trainings and the type
of trainings it goes with.
more runs also means more injuries, how are they
going to manage that.
what is the purpose of the run? cardiovasular
fitness (stamina) or strength. these can be
dealt with through other means of cross training.
which i might add, has a lesser chance
of training injury. i dont know, but i seriously
never joined with the intention to run more.
and lastly, doing something well requires
technique not just quantity. sadly, i see myself
going through pain without seeing results again.

planning, its precisely because we dont know
what we are going to get that we should plan
for it. how can darren just say that he cant
give us an idea because when the juniors come
in it will screw up everything again. if i
dont know what goals we are heading towards,
why join a lost cause in the first place?

sorry man, dick, you signed on your life to
the sport when you chose to stay in school,
hopefully after you enlighten yourself with
those books, you'll see the shit you are in.

hongda asked me how do i know i'm right, i could
ask him the same question but even better how
do you know how what you are doing is not wrong.
and the best would be, how do you know you are
not sacrificing the best for something good? the
last question should set many leaders thinking and
searching. but not this team, we do tradition.
hopefully we dont die with it. stubborness,
unwillingness to adapt.

i dont know, honestly, i am tired of fighting
my friends for a cause we all believe in but
on a path we cannot agree on. i'm tired that
everyone thinks they know, but yet produces
such shitty results because they wont research
on it. i'm saddened that as uni students their
mind is so small they cannot see beyond their
sport and take the best practices of all the rest.

i'm fed up, yet i must have faith.
when things are down and look bad, that is when
i must be strong.
i want to give up and not carry on, because
the heaviest load is a broken heart.
i dont want to quit, but i know i must.
can someone fire me already, we are all
more than just numbers in a team.

posted by green unseen @ 11:15 PM