from green to black

the chariman

ok so i've met someone more naggy than me but who
really speaks without thinking. honestly, dude,
you're a control freak you know? and then when
i (i'm not gonna say others in case some good
friends who read this leak it to him *smiles*
yes lets minimize collateral damage and make it
personal) ask you for an explanation for your actions
you tell me i can't give one, because i dont like
justifying myself and its no point.

firstly, lets put it straight. we both kaopeh.
the difference is this, tell me how do you justify
what you say? i repeat what i have been taught by
coach and seniors while selectively absorbing advice
through my personal filters, background etc.

you, omg, 3 seniors can tell you the same thing
but you can still justify yourself by saying the
vice-cap told you to bend your elbow in recovery.
i really dont mind if you're confused or if you need
an explanation. i'll spend the whole day explaining
to you because its worth it. you just want to kaopeh
for the sake of it. and when you cant win an argument
you throw a fit! come on man! you're in engin not
the faculy of ass. i'm pretty sure you dont have an
excuse to be emo like us who are on the other side.

have a spirit of enquiry. ask, ask, and confirm again.
know your stuff till you can do it eyes closed or
when shack but dont gimmie nonsense by playing off
seniors. it friggin doesnt work. and my batch knows
this. dont try the this senior tell me this and that
and expect me to bother, i know my friends well enough
to be suspicious of them telling you something about
me that you can use to your advantage. no i really
dont care.

i'd give you the bottomline right here.
you are important, as a rower as a teammate.
you are not the least bit important for someone to
bother allying with you against someone else.
dont flatter yourself.

i enjoy mirroring your actions because i know that
it will bring to light what your perceptions are.
if you really think so much and hard about peoples'
possible implications behind an action, i wonder if
you can see what possible perception your action has
on others.

i teach you the stroke, you teach me how to live
my life. hrrmph. training is training, outside is
outside. i can choose to appear to be aloof if i
dont want to reveal my personality to you cant i?

you're just so predictable, telling me i need to
gain your respect. wanting people to understand you.
wanting people to oblige you. sorry man. wasnt
brought up that way.

i seek to understand you first. i limit my interference
to training. i only want the respect of knowing what
i am capable of. ( that way if others claim i am
arrogant i'll tell them its the truth, un-EMBELLISHED
in anyway as per the meaning of arrogance.)

i'm still waiting to pull you up. i'll still defend
your personality. i accept it.
i only cannot stand idiots so please, just dont be one.

posted by green unseen @ 4:59 AM