from green to black

i surrender

lemmie see i have and 84km run in six days.
i have a back injury and i've not trained my legs
i want to complete the run.
i think its impossible yet very possible.
my mind wont let me fall out if i start but i cant
imagine doing something without training and preparing
for it.

i wonder what is going to happen.
i hope i'll be all alone. dont want people to
be around when i hang my head in shame. i dont
want pity either but they are of course free to gloat.

emotionally i think i'll be struggling.
i need to steel my heart to reduce its weight on me.

i'll need to find a corner to hide my face i guess.

posted by green unseen @ 11:31 PM