from green to black

precious

i've always found that i've a very strange relationship
with this entity called God. i keep wondering why its
the simple things where he works, and he's practically
absent when i ask for bigger things. so tell me when is
it coincidence and when is it supernatural force? do you
test it or am i constantly asking for the wrong things?

why do i always choose to give up something precious or
valuable for nothing at all. if i dont, why is it taken
away from me anyway. damned if i hold on to anything,
damned if i dont. who runs? who's calling? its burning
me numb to realize that i'm supposed to take the narrow
yet well trodden road. i eschew the wide one but why
can't i walk on the grass and leave a trail. at least
if i end up nowhere, i'd me able to rest in peace
knowing i'm surrounded by the vastness of the unknown.

oh tell me what you value, that i may take it from you.

posted by green unseen @ 8:48 AM