from green to black

remember to be dishonest

i failed again today. i told the truth and i described
what i was feeling. its a lesson i must remind myself
and publicly. started during training today and i kept
to myself. somewhat, as usual. then i see the chairman
and and the stick insect after training doing extra
stuff.i grimaced and i did my own stuff later. somehow
chairman detected it and confronted me lah.

now why was i so STUPID to tell them i was buay song
with their way of training. i should have just smiled
and said i was just tired. why buay song? chairman needs
to settle himself first and stop telling stick insect
to increase weight! its a damn stupid training method
when the insect has no form at all lor.

and stick insect is damn insecure and always give excuses.
no body will make a big deal about how much you can lift
when we know you are not capable. so why rush the process.
train 6 months and hardly improve... something wrong right?
oso not as hard working as sidney.... sian

maybe i need more of alvin's tips on maneuvering after
all these years in this society. i always found his
sarcasm pointed and refreshing....hmmm maybe i take well.
but its this dumb irritating relationship where others cant
accept as good as they dish out.

prats

posted by green unseen @ 7:19 AM