from green to black

a few words

i met ah fu today. below central library while i was
hiding away from the rain after visiting the doctor
to pay him 25bucks to tell me, " your wound is a little
fresh, but its fine. dont need to come back." yes.
that cost me $25. you see the power that doctors
wield over us.

i told ah fu how much i want to earn my seat on the
boat, again. how i'd compete and sacrifice to get it.
he commented that i'm still the same. of course. i'm
just going to be direct to the people who know me
well enough to take my words for what they are. i
guess there's no need to be brutally truthful to
those who are not secure enough to take comments for
what they are.

i did it differently though. i told him that a boat
has 20 seats, and only 10 a side. and i simply said,
i badly want one.

there, he noted that i still have the drive to compete,
and i approach the situation differently. enough said.
i just want one lousy medal that was denied me. i just
want to make it right to those whom i failed because
they couldnt trust me from what i said. i just want that
sense of honour back for my friends who cried, bitterly
and more than once. when i go down, when i'm raised up,
i wear that lousy piece of metal, as a salute all those
who couldnt.

and i still wear them for you.

posted by green unseen @ 4:56 AM