from green to black

irony

is the feeling you experience when you did all you
could only be get what you wanted to prevent. yes,
life is ironic. i spent all my time on the people
whom i felt should matter, like my family only to
find that i'm paid back in (un)kind. i tried so hard
to give them the life they wanted, only to be treated
even worse then before. so why is that so? am i
destined to live a life of bad karma or is there a
principle of life that i am unaware of or ignoring?

the answer is simple. idealism. i am an idealist and
i say that without shame nor apology. i will go that
extra distance, i will bite twice as hard and stomach
the blow if i think that somehow, someway, any course
of action will give me a long run improvement. i will
pay any price to stand for a world which can be a better
place.

now that paragraph is scary isnt it? especially if i
have a different view from you. idealism inspires fear
from the ignorant. they would rather avoid then question,
hide, rather than seek, oppose instead of embracing change.
funny thing is, they like to go for soundbites, hence
obama's popularity, but they are unwilling to act to be
the change he suggests. so you can imagine that if you
are a doer more than a critic, you are bound to be
misunderstood.

in that way life is understandable. people are resistant
to change. people are inconsistent much as they claim
otherwise because they cannot see the links between their
words and actions. an example would be the people who
claim to want government to take more responsibility and
deliver more programs (big government) yet want lower
taxes. --> you need more money for more programs.

in the same way, my parents tell me they want my happiness
but irritate the bejeezus out of me doesnt really follow
as consistent. hence the topic of this post, irony.
yes, things at home are ironic, if you can compute the
permutations of cases of inconsistency you might probably
have an idea of what i'm going through. and i am exercising
catharsis through the elaboration of this post.

i am amused when i observe irony, of course after more
and more incidents of irony in my life i get more and
more cynical. of course i try to avoid that as well. so
i shall leave this post with the note that irony is always
easier to bear with a little spirit, the type that is at
least 80% proof that is (ok, kidding). isnt it ironic
that i really wanted to stop binge drinking. (seriously kidding)

posted by green unseen @ 7:59 PM