from green to black

group training

the times are changing i guess. there are fewer
training sessions yet fewer people turn up for
group trainings. ( i know i quit, but i'm not
a disinterested party) i wonder why? did the
school system do such an excellent job that
students are more hardworking these days (i
need their help if its so, i remember school
being a life of ceaseless play, with discipline
master breaks) so how come attendance isnt full
for a 4 time a week training?

i have an idea, its called the bare minimum
theory if theres only 3 trainings that are
official, why come for more? unless we raise the
stakes of course ( in my time because there were
so many of us, we were told to fight for a place
on the boat.) as far as i know, since the numbers
are rather small, most will probably fill a boat.
3 times a week. i dont think we're planning on
winning anything at this rate. we would finish
with pull ups so that everyone would hit 20 and
above or 25 and above. not anymore. 3 to 4 water
sessions a week? forget it. team fund too low.
seniors go and row themselves, still no ok from
the top or organization.

and

i'm still not coming back because i feel that i
have been victimized, of course with protests
from the top. i shall not fight it! i have fought
cried and bled enough and in the end there is
always justification from the top. and there is
always rumblings from the bottom. the solution of
course is to be forthright but due to the cliquish
nature of the team, somethings are better said to
some people ( a modification of a certain famous
line) some things are interpreted through a personal
lens without clarification.

a relationship guru would tell us that nothing
makes or breaks a relationship like communication
or a lack thereof. so what happens when rumors
spread without consulting the source regardless
of the intent? a misunderstanding!

a funny thing is that i realize i have never tried
to change a persons character. i have always
accepted people as they are. because people are
a whole package, and we take them as they come,
bad or good traits, who cares? i mean thats
friendship right. (psst hint, you also have the
right not to be friends with people you dont like)
all my friends are not perfect, but i have never
forced them to be something they are not to
qualify for friendship, i wonder why something
like this must happen to me. hey i'm no ubermensch
to be perfected ya know.

i guess the question that was asked of me before
i left the table was needless. would i continue being
honest and frank after realizing that there will
always be some way to justify why i shouldn't have
my feelings an opinions? no. silence and a hollow
will be my witness.

La Historia me absolverá

posted by green unseen @ 9:31 AM