from green to black

fulfilled?

guess you could say i'm really very happy that nic is back.
afterall, that means that todays 985 bus ride to kallang
wasnt a lonely one. so you could say i'm pleased as punch
hes back training. although i think he will need more work
to improve his fitness, i think it is good to see in his
resolute attitude a dedication towards training henceforth.

i value the small boat sessions more as the days passes. i
realize that sid and lapcheong twist more, and i got to cox
which was very enriching for myself. figured i can go straight
if i leave the rudder in the water, but the tiring part comes
when i try to bend down and take it out. then i would get a
nice ache on my lower back. then somehow i lose control because
i dip the paddle in the opposite angle which results in the
boat turning in the wrong direction. so that sucks because
i'm not going straight, but i figured out how to correct
eventually. so, great! the coxswain club has a new member.

but one of the things training has brought to my attention
again is the farce of male ego. you see, there are zai people
and there are wannabes. i really appreciate being told my
mistakes because it keeps me humble and i improve. what is
laughable is that some people correct your mistakes whilst
making the same mistakes themselves. lol. so i find it very,
how should i put it, pot calling kettle black? or just...?
well i'm at a lost for words. you see, i dont mind lets say
when A tells me i made a mistake, or maybe the champ if
he talks about my punching arm(well his looks nicer now, maybe
later when i improve, mine will be nicer. but i concede now)
because i look at them and i go, yah, they're right! so i
change. but the rest when they make the same mistakes
and try to correct others, makes me wanna laugh. because
if i look to the corrector then i should see the right thing.
because if i follow the corrector and he makes the same
mistake, i dont improve. get it? so while i have my mental
model, what happens to the people who dont, and follow
the person who corrected them? more rubbish, of course!

so yes please correct me and all those whom you can, but please
do the right thing first. if you want to look important, like
you know your stuff, then please demonstrate properly.
i'm irritated when i see that you cant do it and then you're
telling everyone else how it should be done. ok maybe its
my mindset, but i see different yous both on and off the boat.
i guess its really easy to repeat what the seniors say, but
only if you truly understand will you be able to do as the
seniors say and explain after that. but i still love all of
you if that helps.

i really hope more people can make it for the small boat
sessions, especially if they are from the right side. because
while i know that some have the strength, the mastery of the
stroke is essential. the race is not just one good set. its
one great set, again and again and again. what if you have
3 events and you have limited rest? can you keep doing a
great set or will it be 1 great set, 1 good set, 1 ok set
and the rest are all cui sets? i remember bentten telling
me to sleep well so we will not cui the last 200m. but the
essential part is your body will cui unless you train it so
that it wouldnt. and your body will cui faster when you
are doing the wrong thing instead of the right thing. the
perfected stroke is very relaxed and power can be applied
without straining the smaller muscles (read, bi and tricepts)
too quickly, as a result recovery is faster as well.

as the days go by, i'm also thinking of the big and small
questions to ask our candidates for leadership. at least,
the legacy i leave behind when i go may be the direction
for the new team. afterall, i definitely refuse to teach
all the people who think they know so much about sports how
to improve. my breath is wasted on you insisting to do it
your way without basing it on any other foundation then your
resistance to change. at least i know if i say anything or
demonstrate it i would have researched it well enough to
advice. you? you argue based on how you feel. totally stupid
if you ask me. but i'm a burger king man. have it your way.

pussy.

posted by green unseen @ 6:02 AM