from green to black

Another fruitless discussion?

Finally we had our long awaited meeting which was
another long awaited let down. Hur hur. Whats new?
Well lets just say that attendance was not spectacular
and those who really needed to hear what was being
said were not there anyway.

So the same trite points were raised in my monologue.
I thought everyone had Plenty to say but maybe it was
just me, or maybe because it was all pre written
on this trusty blog. And according to my argument style
I figured that my friends need more exposure to different
concepts before we can have a finer discussion
which is not just based on emotion or intuition
but facts and proven methods.

Well, this post was not meant to be a rebuke
because we probably have enough of that at the moment,
rather, I would like to pen down a eulogy for my captains
who are stepping down soon. I would rather prefer
to go down to battle grateful for what they have done
then with a heart that is against their person.


Capt

thank you for being the best captain I had
so far, I will always remember the first
instance when you told me about family culture
and love. That will always be the memory I keep in
my heart because it was in that act when you surpassed all
expectations I had of leadership and of the standards
I have of myself. Love is and emotional plane I never
operate in because I would never allow myself to
feel. For that act of vulnerability, you have my respect
for an action I would never have the guts to
seriously put into action.

I remember the times when you have taken a
small boat out with some juniors to correct us in
December, because I learnt a lot then too. But
I did not have my enlightenment until I did more
research to understand the sport. That was a pity
because I know how to put in words what is demonstrated
by actions, and I could have been a great help to you.

I remember the family culture you tried
painstakingly to cultivate and the brave
front you put on when we lost. It must have
been difficult. I remembered you listening to my
concerns with sincerity, and I stayed on twice
upon your urging. Such are the sacrifices I would make
for the people I considered my close friends.
For all I have learnt, I am grateful.


Vice capt

thank you for being the best motivator I had
on the boat. Nothing beats a like spirit motivating
one on the boat. Your talk after the master series
made the most impact on my growth as a rower and
I will be grateful for that. I always identified with
your role as the disciplinarian because it was a role i
had to play all too often. It takes more guts to be
reviled by lesser men who may never truly see the
importance of such a role.

I am also grateful for the effort that was
put in logistically to make each training and
competition happen, for the car, and how you
would clean up and pack up afterwards. It must
be hard to stomach since it really is our
duty to take care of our belongings.

I remember our talks and your encouragement
when I wanted to leave,I was touched when you
said that you left for a while also in your first sem.
actually leaving made me realize how much I would
miss out if I did not Stay on for one season at least.
Thank you for preventing me for making a rash choice
but more importantly for being so honest. I may not care
much for personal details which you stress before
one can label another a brother because it was never
important to my family as I grew up. But those details
pale in the sincerity and honesty we share when we treat
each other truly as brother. For all my growth I am grateful.


Right, so maybe there will be a silver lining
in my sky of grey when my fellow juniors shape up
to BE good rowers instead of just strong people, clue:
machine. But for now, and those whom I row for,
clue: machine, I hope they improve quickly and spread
the correct practices and enthusiasm. when there is
still hope, and the race is not done, we must do what we
can. For our cause, because the best is yet to be.

posted by green unseen @ 6:56 AM