from green to black

just finite

man, life doesnt get any better for me does it? well
in case you're thinking its horrible, down-in-the-pits,
my pet dog broke up with me kindda thing, good news its
not. life is normal, its just not exciting. its rather
monotonous. so i'm thankful for the relief neil brought
when he lent me his book titled,
the pig that wants to
be eaten. it was stimulating throughout its 100
thought experiments but i hit ground zero when i
stopped. you see in books like this u get kindda
despondent when you ask yourself questions like,
how should i apply this? how do i relate to people
differently because of this? and a host of other
questions that wont come to mind immediately at
2.30am at night. you are thankful that you know
some of the questions have to be answered only when
you get to them and some with a i just dont know. which
only confirms 1 thing that hey i'm at another of my
boundaries, what i know and experience is finite up to
a certain point. which irks me because i know my
favourite option 3 is just out there. oh well. dont miss
out on that it is certainly an entertaining read.

so lemmie cover the recent trip to K.L. it was so-so.
remember my initial line of frustration? the camp was
relaxing, and i did enjoy the free time but sometimes
i really just didnt enjoy certain peoples company. i
didnt like certain 'singaporean' attitudes and behaviour.
and as usual i'm refering to adults. how much can you
blame a kid anyway? where did they pick up their habits?
and for goodness sake, do you really need to win at
all costs? its a friggin church camp! and wads the
meaning about expecting people to do more when you hardly
bother including them anyway? look i'm really fine
about doing more, but hey i didnt even know there was
more to do, especially when you implied i knew much
more. yeah i know i'm sore about that, but it really
stings to be portrayed as couldnt-care-less when i
would gladly have done what was needed if you requested
it of me. and dont tell me initiative, you never
considered me as part of your team 50% of the time
we were working together. damn i cant believe it, i
didnt leave too long ago and it seems like i'm
describing a generation gap.i would be laughing if
i wasnt involved in this situation.

so thats for that certain incident. i did however make
a new friend. his name is wilson and this is how he looks like.



well, i made friends with fukai and his cell
group that he leads too but i dont have pictures of
them. it was good fun playing frisbee with you guys.
you reminded me i was young, and badly behaved once.
haha. thanks for the enjoyable experience.

so the building you see at the background is the palace
of the golden horses, mines resort K.L. and it is
humongous. service was a let-down though. probably due
to the sheer numbers of the camp. 830 people. woah!
so there were no salt and pepper shakers at meals,
certain toiletries had to be requested from room
service personally among other things. but its redeeming
quality was that the service rendered by the staff
was warm and forthcoming. and it reminds me of 1
reason why i somewhat miss the army, breakfast!
i love hotel breakfasts. but go slow on anything
else that isnt local because they really do the
local stuff much better. we had the toughest beef roast
there. thankfully we had a fantastic nasi lemak
breakfast on the last day to salvage the experience.
here, some pictures of the hotel and conference room
courtesty of my phone. need pics from camwhores.




so off the campy stuff, i'm in half a fix. not a full fix
because i have a solution but half a fix because i can
probably have a better solution if i think hard about it.
daphne's birthday is in a week's time and i'm agonising
over what to get her. ugh! and i'm resisting the urge to
give chocolates. i would love to get her a book but
i'd be quite a moron if i get her something she loathes
reading. one mans beef is anothers catepillar, comprende?
and i'm not even sure if she drinks so i cant make use of
my alcohol stash! finally a picture.


its rapidly being depleted but not to worry i will have
enough to tide be through sad days in uni. haw haw.
then as usual i will give here a fino sherry to wish
her a sweet start. arrgh! if only someone would help
me with this. help help help.

hmmmmm debra's birthday is coming up too and thankfully
i dont need to get her anything hahahaha being cousins
for so long i'd probably get away with it. but she made
a simple request. 2 bottles from the collection. i'm
fine with that.

watching little brother on his performance was kindda
so-so for me (again) it brought back memories but i
really wished he had put in greater effort. sometimes
i worry for the little ass. he tries to have it all
like some older brother he knows but he really does
a lot of things wrong.the kind of effort he puts in.
he just wont listen when i tell him that one can
earnestly put in his greatest effort into something.
but doing the wrong thing with the best effort hardly
gives one the desired result. oh well. i am trying
though to layoff him as much as possible. after all
i shouldnt be his crutch or his main enemy. if he
aint listening, then i have the wisdom of letting go.
the result would just be like his preformance with all
his effort, out of time and step, plain ordinary.

oh then comes the job. which is fine in itself. what
beats the sense out of me is how puerile fusses can
be raised especially amongst the family members.
you guys do realise that not everything is a korean
drama serial! heck sometimes the best thing to do
is to adopt a see first attitude before u charge in
guns-a-blazin. yes i'm very sure each party has their
faults but look at your reactions. obviously i wouldnt
take sides. you may remove yourself from the equation
of the situation now but hey there may be times
later on in life where you have to stick to a terrible
situation can you ride it out then. though i kindda
feel bad for you, i have so many experiences with
bosses that i'm not so bothered. well madame boss,
you've fired 2 good workers, how many more?

hopefully i'll get some pictures of work. the food
is good. seriously. i think the uniforms do make me
look good and pretty girls often pop in. its
fantastic really if only i wasnt emotionally involved.
in case yo're thinking. no i dont find it demeaning.
and it certainly is less stressful then teaching.
also i hate dealing with parents. especially stupid,
unreasonable, obnoxious parents. my bane, i'm gone.
i just wish i get to go and learn more form the
kitchen. maybe nexttime i'll apply to be a dishwasher.

oooooh aunt leni is back. yippies!

posted by green unseen @ 11:22 AM