from green to black

because i'm a little tweaked

Its funny what the possession of 2 s-papers can do to your
normally level friends. and so i've been called tweaked by
a metrosexual. *fumes* but i guess since thats what i'm
known for, i'll just continue the part. its the simplest way to
justify any unknown.

restless 3 was entertaining especially with that cute couple
dance. that short girl was sooo cute! already i wonder if i can
get the cds to watch it again. i saw btcb over there and some
of my juniors from her batch. i saw liujun and raj, lucy and
betty too. (hope i got their names right) Quanda came along
and he was happy to watch it as well and experience AC
culture. after that we headed to holland village to meet the
people from sc10. bird, ade and jun were already waiting in
the hawker centre(not food court). so i figured that we could
go into coffee bean for some respite from the swealtering heat.
then came hazel and after an even longer time, shermaine.
luckily quanda didnt feel too left out though he was able to
talk more to shermaine about cheerobics.

It was an enjoyable time. and i think i'm better able to relate
to them especially since i'm getting on better terms with my
mom. but i figure that i'll always be the odd one out because
i think i'm the least likely to get in on any relationships while
maybe my mom's still alive. oh well. then i went to quanda's
place after that and i had a baileys and collected my 2 bottles
of spirits. and that ended friday and the week on a very high
note.

sat was fun as well. woke up around 0830 and went to barker
to teach the little boys how to play better badminton. they did.
i corrected their strokes. taught them footwork and strategy,
showed them some drills. i can see them improving. one went
on to beat the coach. then i went to the bookfair at suntec. it
was mainly chinese books. though i did see a berlitz spanish
workbook i didnt have the moolah to buy. i met linda there, and
told her that i couldnt contine my time suscribtion. she thanked
me for my time. promise kept, i went to meet jun in sogo. and
with her easygoing nature its always fun to be around her. I'm
heppy to meet chris and ade too. somehow its nice to see them
together even though they're not in a relationship(so i'm told)
coz i think chris really likes her lots and i like seeing people have
a good time. ( maybe one day i will return as sociable as i was in
barker but i doubt it) it gives me inspiration anyway. thankx for
the advice about shopping and the shoes. if i dont need to be
financially independent i would love to actually buy stuff with
you guys. but its not gonna happen till i ord.

Its great times and good people like this when i start to wonder if
my 'tweakedness' is more a strength or a liability. as said by kenneth,
independence is good but too much of it... human beings are designed
to be social, with instances of give and take. this dependence usually
seen as weakness from my point of view is also one way in which
people build bonds with each other. refusing to take, accept help,
ask for advice and doing things independently and being overly
self-reliant produces results but it makes you an island. because
the given perception through such actions is rejection nevermind the
intentions. few like the unknown and fewer like being rejected thus
this explains the factor...

then we met jon at the food court. haha. and i kept recounting my
episode with jianyong and kannan on the escalator. my sergeant
presence is so strong that they almost called me sergeant. sss.. ssi
i managed an easy 'hi' to take away the awkward situation. haha
man my ego is swelling at the thought of my influence. see guys,
i'm nice outside afterall ;) after the food. which was 2 very tasty
naans and a masala chicken we went to the bus stop. jun to go home
and ade and chris to watch x-men 3, jon went to meet his other army
friends and i went to kino. i finished a book so i guess it was time
well spent.

oh well, guess i'll continue explaining myself to myself. so at least
i'll be more understanding of their feelings and perceptions. I
owe them this much at least, that i can be better company in their
fantastic, interesting presence. Its not gonna be easy, but my choices
in life means that i shouldnt have it any other way.

posted by green unseen @ 9:52 AM