from green to black

letter from the past

dude!
i heard the summons from the dark recesses of your mind
and i've roused myself from my rest to wake your sorry
ass up. good lord, those tired wishes of yours to be 15
again were starting to grate the peaceful winds of history
in the sands of time. no matter, lets get to the beef.

what happened? i kind of remember leaving you as an
original, but you sure as hell look like you're on the
path to being a conformist, apple polishing adult that
i hate. hey, you aint me no more the last time i checked
in the mirror. since when did i give a damn what others
saw in me when they looked? i'm brilliant and i'm gorgeous
and for a pussy like you, you need to be smacked around
the head a little.

oh wait, dont try to justify yourself. come on, i've
been around you all along. times changed, sure, and
you changed along with it. i swear that this wasnt the
5 year plan i left for you. Gosh, you're so predictable
and i'll bet you'll be going for training first thing
tomorrow morning, didnt occur to you to do anything
different did it? if you're gonna grow and act all softy
you'll end up predictable. like i always say, leave the
predictable to the resigned morons, you, you're different
and interesting, go be it!

oh and dont tell me money dude. if you remember eating
that 95cents heavenly cup noodles because it was all you
could afford with anthony before both of you nearly
passed out from fatigue after cycling or sucking on
ketchup sachets because it put something in your stomach,
then you'd know passion will keep you alive coz you sure
as hell aint gonna die for what you believe in, that
fighter in you would live for it. so what the heck man?
what's the last cause you lived for? if you cant stand
what you're doing now because your hearts not in it, then
screw off, because you'd answer to yourself anyway. since
when did you care what others think. team? they will only
count their own costs man. live for a cause worth living
for. its not sports or studies, they're just signposts
on the beaten track. they get you somewhere, but you'll
never know if you have the potential to hit the magic
kingdom yonder if you just stick, break dude.

so you're legal now, i'm kindda embarrassed when i see
you trying to be little mr perfect in obeying the rules.
yeah, they're there for a reason, safety. you aint
supposed to be safe. you dan dang dane dangerous man.
i didnt ask you to break laws, but there are shortcuts
in doing things the in the same manner someone else says
they must be done.

and when was the last time you let yourself be vulnerable?
and dont give me that emotion crap, you shouldnt be
something you're not. have an adventure to boast about.
i did that all the time. from the way i slept in class,
to my adventures in the cemetery at midnight. your lack
of some crazy tale makes me sick. you aint gonna be
entertaining and refreshing at this rate.

my friend, go get a life. our neglected girlfriend sits
in the corner of your room because you cant find the time
to get her tyre changed. talk to her. i did, she always
gave the best advice because she cleared your head. she
believed in you, you believed in you when no one else did.
so i'm telling you that you dont need to seek anyones
approval, just your own. faith my friend, because i've
seen you do it before. if you need some passion, think
of me. carpe diem.

i'm going back to my place of rest now. and remember,
i'm watching you. so go screw something up tiger!
have fun!

your self from the past. when you were 15. ;)
toodles moron. *poof*


yeah! gimmie the attitude i like.
the finger was for my bro's girlfriend, not dad.
everywhere take camera. picture-slut. cam-whore.


i like to joke that this is another .|. you moment
but hey, you can tell i toned down TOO much.

miss that A**hole. you see, there's something about him
that i've buried over the years. you either liked me or
you hated me to death last time. there was no middle
ground, i didnt try to be pacifist, or anything, i was
just me. and then i grew up. of course, that explains
why those who know me longer figure out that there's a
good man behind it all, but i guess when live is lived
in modules, we cant afford to look deeper in anyone no?
*i tried though but i guess some people really like to
keep things hidden...

ok, so i planned my next adventure
with nick (for a lack of a crazy girlfriend) its a get
up and go kindda thing. and the theme is railways. we
dont know what we're getting into, we're not going to
plan excessively, and even though we likely have green
we're probably going on the cheap. but knowing nickhong,
i'm ready to go it alone if need be. growing up, you
cant please everybody.

thank god i've cash and i'm not bound.

posted by green unseen @ 9:52 AM