from green to black

hope

i went back to kallang today to cox. thankfully, because i
was still rather sick so rowing would have been too taxing
for me. i didnt want to back out because it may have made
jackson feel bad, and i didnt want to. so i coxed and i coached
the juniors while the seniors were doing their thang. and i
really wasnt impressed by what i saw from the seniors. i
dont know, but they need to be more agressive. i dont know
how to put it in words, but i dont feel the confidence and
the belief that they can win when i'm close to them on the
water. maybe its just me, but this is translated into
something that i can usually feel if i'm beside a good
competitor.

well. its disappointing to see also that juniors do not
have enough personal coaches to go down with them pass on
the knowledge and correct them. i shant say more but i know
alvin is needed to help the seniors more. if the seniors
cant get their act together, none of the juniors will follow
well. i realize that, sure, we have a training program. but
we lack the quality of coaching and guidance that can only
come with good experience.

i am still hopeful though. i am always hopeful. when the hour
is darkest thats when hope shines brightest. i guess thats
true in my life as well. i believe that something good will
come, all i need to do is last a little longer.

posted by green unseen @ 5:18 AM 0 comments

for the lack of updates

i could have sworn that my memory function got locked each time
i sit in front of the computer, so i guess i'll settle for
diarrhea until something interesting comes out. its been a little
less than 3 weeks and i've amazingly mastered the basics of
freestyle such that i can actually cut people in the pool. good.
though i do have to work on my stamina. 8weeks left before i swim
4km so i dont have much time. i'm scared as hell still but i know
i'm not going to busselton just for a swim. i'll damn well complete
that ironman if its the last thing i do, and i'm praying that my
equipment doesnt fail me. if all goes well, i hope to finish in
12hours and with the flag across my back instead of around my
(dead)body. i've been neglecting the runs and cycles a little
but i think i can catch up on that during the recess break.

i'm looking forward to this sunday where i get to go back and
row with the champ just for the fun of it. makes me so happy.
ahh well. better start exercising so i can protein load soon.
i just wish i could take a year's break and not need to worry
about the finances for personal improvement. heh. keep training
hard.

posted by green unseen @ 7:48 AM 0 comments