from green to black

booster removal

i cant describe how happy i am that exams are finally here
as you know its my favourite period. i get kicks watching
people worry for nothing, like it helps them do any better.
i always "not worry" because i know most people worry
enough for two, so since i'm too lazy to worry for myself
i guess they can do my worrying for me.

something terrible happened over the weekend. they lost
badly, embarrassingly and left me in the state of total,
shocked silence. they were out for revenge, but they only
had their tails whipped. when i drove there, they had
already left for a few hours. lol, 3.50 parking fees for
nothing.

so i had my first easy paper today. something i'm amazed
i finished for the amount of effort i spent on it. i was
blowing so much smoke i wonder if the examiner can wade
through it all. haha. but at least i know its a pass for
this module.

around this time last week i was rather upset. after all
while others had reading week rather free i guess. for me,
i still had lectures for my extra module and i still had
tuition to provide. and the worst part was i felt that i
had no support from home whatsoever, that had me feeling
very unmotivated. and i hate feeling unmotivated recently.
i mean i've felt unmotivated for more than a year but
recently to hear that friends whom i accept unconditionally
are friends with me because of cap or intelligence? what
the hell!? i dont know, but seriously meritocracy may be
the way we are employed in this world, but i really dont
think meritocracy is the way to choose friends. oh well...

think i should have stuck to what i'm good at. rubbish.
then that person isnt me. judge, but i dont care, take
it or leave it, its my way of the highway. and i make no
apologies for that

posted by green unseen @ 5:00 AM