from green to black

heartbreaks are difficult

i went to the christian university dedication service
today instead of training with the team. feeling free
for the first time on a thursday, dragged myself there
with a heavy heart because the a2 bus passed by the
guys as they were doing their warm ups. and the
memories just came rushing back. it wasnt so long ago
that i was there, amongst them. freshie. it wasnt so
long ago that i kept those words of hope in my heart.
it wasnt so long ago when i could look all around me
and row through the toughest trainings because i
believed so strongly that everyone around would do the
same for me. because we're there for each other. :)
no questions asked.

i walked to the back of the hall to find a seat, and
was called over by a friend. he asked me how i was,
i told him i'm fine. then he asked me how was my sport.
and he was shocked when i told him i quit. he exclaimed
that he didnt think it was possible. he then explained
to another friend sitting beside that i had, yes he used
the word had, a love affair with the sport. i felt
even worse. i smiled anyway. i didnt want to show that
i was in pain.

was expressing some feelings to myself in other languages
because, i dont like to describe my feelings in english.
its too clinical, i'm too precise and i am a stickler for
using the most accurate word for any given situation.
then i remembered this. i used to sing this song to ben
when i told him how i would motivate myself to row harder.

here goes. i shall attempt to translate with my rusty
spanish. i'll take some liberties to give you more
precise definition rather than just translate it word
for word or it will be rather, ermz, plastic?

taken from
http://www.lyrics007.com/Juanes%20Lyrics/Fotografia%20Lyrics.html



Cada vez que yo me voy llevo a un lado de mi piel
Tus fotografías para verlas cada vez
Que tu ausencia me devora entero el corazón
Y yo no tengo remedio más que amarte

every time when i leave(you)
i carry your photo close to my heart
that i may see you everytime
because your absence consumes all my heart
and there is no cure for me but to love you

Y en la distancia te puedo ver
Cuando tus fotos me siento a ver
Y en las estrellas tus ojos ver
Cuando tus fotos me siento a ver

and in the distance its you i see
when i sit down and look at your pictures
and in the stars i see your eyes
when i sit down to gaze at your picture

Cada vez que te busco te vas
Y cada vez que te llamo no estás
Es por eso que debo decir que tú sólo en mis fotos estás

everytime i see you leave
everytime i call and you're not there
i feel that you're only there in my photos

Cuando hay un abismo desnudo
Que se opone entre los dos
Yo me valgo del recuerdo taciturno de tu voz
Y de nuevo siento enfermo este corazón
Que no le queda remedio más que amarte

whenever there is a gaping divide between us
and i remember your hurtful words
my heart hurt's afresh
but there's nothing better that remains
but to love you

Y en la distancia te puedo ver
Cuando tus fotos me siento a ver
Y en las estrellas tus ojos ver
Cuando tus fotos me siento a ver

Cada vez que te busco te vas
Y cada vez que te llamo no estás
Es por eso que debo decir que tú sólo en mis fotos estás

hurts but hey, i still remember some spanish ;)
in chinese, its called yuan wang

posted by green unseen @ 10:12 AM