from green to black

rest

i think i spent more hours asleep today than any other
recently. i cant believe, i'm so tired! i wonder how i've
been psyching myself to train twice a day, give up on
so many guilty pleasures, wake up at ungodly hours and
the list goes on. training camp will be in a few days
time and i cant think of what to pack either. what
supplements to bring or how much clothes or money.
afterall i heard that we have to settle some of our
meals by ourselves. i wonder if macdonalds is off limits.
but i'm pretty sure i can sneak off if i really want to.
wonder if i should bring in a few pleasures like some
chocolates or chips too. it would be just like army.
lol. i remember snacking on m&ns outfield or was it
in camp already. hopefully i get a single room then,
or maybe a room with someone who doesnt give a shit
about diet too. you know the kind of team mate that tells
you that you will be weaker if u eat fried stuff and
dont know what else. i wanna ask how many people who
actually keep such a diet are much stronger. lol.
its all in the mind isnt it? or i could tell myself
that i have to pay off the *debt* after eating all that.
isnt it motivation looked at from another viewpoint?
sian, if only i can get some pictures from the rest
who used their cameras. at least i can have some good
memories to keep when i'm gone.

posted by green unseen @ 5:18 AM